Dear everything, I quit.
I don't get it. I've been home for a month...well not even...it's not even a matter of wanting to go back to Ohio anymore. It's a matter of not wanting to feel trapped into whatever it is that I'm in. I don't know what to do, I don't know where to go...I want to run away from my problems again but this time I don't want to come back. I know I lament the same things pretty much every day and am probably losing readership fast, but I can't help it. I don't understand what is happening to me right now. I feel completely out of the loop. It's not like everyone here kept in touch with each other every day of the whole summer, but I feel like it's been months and months since I've even talked to any of them, and it makes me sad.
Elizabeth - I wish you were here!!! You and every other CP person!!! Well, except some.
Speaking of CP people, I was supposed to see Donna & Chrystina tonight but they got stuck in rush hour traffic in Chicago (stupid Chicago), and when they finally reached Ripon-ish area, it was about midnight, and they still had 4.5 hours to go...so that made me sad too, but it's not their fault, I completely understand. 4:30AM is early enough to end your drive...and they said they'd be going through again in November, so I should be able to catch them then. At least I hope so...
I mean, as long as they don't come through on Nov. 13 - because that's Austin's recital, and consequently pretty much the ONLY day I'm busy for the entire month of November...just one more thing to make me sad/pissed off/not to mention feeling VERY inconsequential.
So off to bed, and hoping maybe the morning will bring a deletion of these feelings...yeah, probably not.

- posted by L. @ 1:07 AM