Under the Tuscan Sun....
Okay, so about...hmmm...five months ago, some well-meaning friends decided that it would be empowering to watch Under the Tuscan Sun. Unfortunately their timing was a bit off.
For those of you that aren't familiar with the movie, it's a story of a recently-divorced writer who, on a trip to Italy, impulsively buys a villa in Tuscany. The movie talks about moving on with life and taking chances...a very good thing to use for inspiration - however three days after being dumped is not the time to watch movies about moving on with life. Anyway...
So five months later, I've finally taken the steps to watching Under the Tuscan Sun, and where I love just about any movie with Diane Lane (one of my favorite actresses!) just like I like about any movie with Gene Wilder (same thing), the whole movie does bring back a lot of very sad memories.
I know that the end of a year and a half relationship is nothing quite like a divorce, but really, hearing that the other person doesn't feel the same, or that they cheated on you, or that it's over...good lord. You might as well just die right there. Life is good and then all the sudden...
I didn't have the luxury of going to Italy, unfortunately, the furthest I got was Ohio. But it's the same thing - sort-of, only there were no impulsive buys of villas, the closest thing I got to a big purchase was a blanket. And a few stuffed animals.
I went to Ohio confused and sad and broken-hearted. I didn't know what I was going to Ohio for, and I didn't know what would happen there, or who I would meet, or whether I would get my mind off of a number of different people. I expected to have things be exactly the same when I got back as when I left, but surprisingly enough, it's not. I guess I shouldn't have been so naive as to think that leaving for three months would leave everyone else exactly the same as I left them, things happen, people go away, people lead their lives.
It's hard adjusting to being back here.
I've been home in Wisconsin for just under a month, and every day I wish it was a few months earlier. I miss everyone from this summer so much!! I learned a lot this summer, and where as it makes it easier for me to understand a lot of things about here (the bubble from hell), I still am having a hard time adjusting to being back here. I feel different than I did three months ago, and it's been hard to get back into the swing of things. Every Monday I think that things will change with the coming week, but it hasn't yet. Maybe it won't. Maybe I'm just waiting for graduation, already, and I can't wait to get out of here.
Sigh...
Either way, to my summer friends (and my graduated friends!): I miss you tres beaucoup!!!
- posted by L. @ 2:45 AM