NERVES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Good lord, it's not even the NIGHT before. It's TWO nights before. And GAH! I'm so fucking nervous!! Tomorrow is going to drag! And my two hour morning work shift is minus one Jean...oh goody. That helps. Or not. So I'll be working on the program in the afternoon - nothing like a last minute deal. But that's how the world turns I guess.
I spent about 2.5 hours practicing tonight in the recital hall. While the Beethoven has improved IMMENSELY (if I play it on Tuesday the way I nailed it tonight, there will be NO worries), the Beach piece, I think, has already climaxed and is just going down. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, FUCK. This is not to say that it's not going to be good (I hope it can!), but it really could have been a lot better tonight. Chopin is going fairly decently, and so is Bartok. I'm going to need to iron out a few spots tomorrow night, so hopefully I can find someone to cover half of my night shift in order to practice and then go to bed at a decent hour (since I might have to be up at an insane hour like, oh, 6:30 or something ridiculous like that in order to get ready and look decent BEFORE my 8:30 class. Which I will NOT sleep through this week - I will set all three of my alarms if I have to!)
And then, to top it off, I have to write a CHEMISTRY paper that's due on Tuesday. Poop! Who wants to write a CHEMISTRY paper? I probably should have done that this weekend, but that would have been logical, and smart, and besides I was too busy trying to figure out how to turn on our scanner (before Dad did it for me). So tomorrow night at work, I get to write a CHEMISTRY paper. I wonder if there is a way I can figure out how to get the paper to write itself and still get me an A of some form, because goodness knows I need it.
Oh, this is too much work for the end of the semester! I don't even want to think about all the shit I have to do by next Monday. So much for having Friday off, I'm going to be working from dawn to dusk - and probably then some too. Jazz band Friday night, Choral Union hell on Saturday, Choraliers hell on Saturday night, Choral Union hell concert Sunday, no sleeping Sunday night to write history paper due Monday...shoot me now. That AND I'm missing Rockapella in Milwaukee on Thursday to go to (of all the yucky things...) ORCHESTRA. And they're doing a Christmas program! Rockapella! The same group that was on Where in the world is Carmen Sandiego? Rockapella! Gaaaaaahhhhhhh! Let's see...Orchestra or Rockapella? The choice seems obvious to me, however the other is a class. Sigh.
I shouldn't even be thinking about all this crap because I've got a recital to worry about. I can't wait until next Monday.....everything will be done. Except my chemistry presentation. But I planned on BSing that whole thing anyway, I'm good at BSing oral presentations for some reason.
Can't wait till next Monday.....
In the meantime, once Dad figured out how to turn on the scanner, my pictures were scanned (not by me...*blushes at computer illiteracy*) and are collected and posted on the web: http://photos.yahoo.com/mslauren18
Check 'em out and lemme know what you think :) Nothing like fun pictures - there's formal pictures there too...thanks Matt and Brandon!! :)
And Paul, you never cease to crack me up:

Paul: Hey, sorry I missed you AGAIN this break. Things were, shall we say, hectic??!! Hopefully this doesn't become a trend. I'll have to catch you next time I'm back in good old Milwaukee...that or I'll have to come to Ripon again sometime. I hope you had a good Thanksgiving, and I hope you weren!!! Talk to you later.
Auto response from Lauren: practice makes perfect! or at least, it gets closer to perfect that not practicing does! i'm down in rodman, and i'll probably be there for a while...
Paul: Whoops!
Paul: *hope you weren't too bored!!!!
Paul: lataaaaaa
- posted by L. @ 1:23 AM